bittersweet


I like this part of the show. A very meaningful extract.
I know this is supposedly more like a 2010 resolution post, but anyway, I had the urge.
Time really flies, It's been a year since I left all the crap of the secondary school days me.
The extract, when i hear, just makes me think again. again like one of those times i would think.
"people who regret would normally think back."

I wonder if things now did turn out the way i wanted. I wanted a new life, I wanted a new social circle. Stupid me, I guess I had too much wishful, foolish thinkings. I've regretted too many times within this whole year. A fun year, but yet full of regrets too. Some of my friends are becoming distant. They feel so far away now.
and I've been trying, putting behind this very special person. or once if its more appropriate.
we had good times, but sometimes things just go wrong.
I was young and Naive, I never thought of people's feelings. I didn't want to tell the truth because I didn't want to lose him, though it still happened.
well, I was one girl I am not now.
Sometimes I avoid the topic to talk about, but things around just keeps reminding me. things, words, people.
Although I occasionally think about the person, nothing much I could either.
I think about the happy times, but then the worst part too. Even though I've regretted, but I know how lousy I was, so i never could try to reach to the person again.
Even if the chance was there, I didn't want to do anything. Nope, no courage, not right infront of him. It's slowly disappearing away, for a good cause I guess.
Two whole years. time for a change maybe. I've had a wonderful secondary school life. A bittersweet one.

To Ryan, I still hope that you are happier than before!



Just like the extract.
Its a heavy night tonight. Tomorrow will be another fine day.

1102


Paul our very own dear scene kid <3

I've been reporting what I've been doing these few days.
Really messed up.
My migraines are coming back again and I almost couldn't breathe last night. Really.
Lately I've been shitting every morning because of my laxative tea. But this morning, cork up again.
Okay, just gulped down one big gulp of the tea, but eating sambal fish with rice at the same time. haha!
sinful.. sinful.
Meisin-ful.
The performance at 09'Prom was so touching, but the timeslot they gave us suck. 90 people is very little and honestly, it was pretty boring. But I'm realy thankful to the table who used the red napkins waving to us, and the gone-mad girls who sand together with me!! That really made my day even though I was still two days to the deadline for the SWOT report. So thank you sweethearts! ( Meisin taught me this word )
I still miss miss miss the Smoked Salmon sashimi, slurps.

Christmas Carol was such a bore, except the 3D feature. But the shades gave me headaches.
So boring till Ary fell asleep, which was when I found out he was dead silent. Scroogey.

And anyway, I already tried to forget the 2012 things so I'm pretty optimistic about beautiful world now. Enjoying my sambal fish and a day free of homework.
I can't sleep on the train anymore, don't know why. The train rides seemed to get even longer now. Cash depleting fast and the worst, My hair is over-growing to bushy thickness. Not good bushy,


lol to the picture, but in a bad way and I really want a new colour on my hair.

I'm having an apple now, trying to cool myself down from all the shock and trauma I had an hour ago in the cinema.
You know how we always comment on movies, like " this movie sucks!" or " Tom cruise is so hot" or " my god I hope they have a sequel".
This time, its different.
the movie may have flaws in the storyline, or no matter how exaggerating they characters get to live so luckily, you might forget. but something that shakes you will still remain forever in you. For me, permanently. Until I see the day coming.
I actually believed 2012 might happened. Even before I watched the movie.
Which was Today.
Three years later, maybe?
Ships, China, tsunamis. God knows what may happen or I might still be sleeping on my bed.
I'm pretty traumatized by this whole movie. Seeing what happens to the whole world. Obviously, I never believed Kate, Jackson and those kids would have even flew away from California and lived to the moment they boarded the safe ship that was built secretly 3 years ago in the movie.
everything would just crumble and we'll all be a piece of shit? yea.

Anyway, too afraid death, I went on a search again.
Not sure if its accurate, but still.
"First, let’s get the facts clear. The Mayans didn’t make any prophecy saying the world will end on December 21st, 2012. What they predicted was that the world will undergo a drastic change."
"What is set to happen is a change in mental gears, a better understanding of one’s own self and the opening up of one’s endless potentials, a process that is actually in progress right now. This changing perception will speed up as we hurtle along towards the culmination of this fifth world age, granting each of us a deeper sense of understanding of the important role each of us has to play in these significant times."
- 2012truth.org

Theories and prophecies, my god, confusing.
so tired.

we'll see.


Taeyang's voice.
Guys with such voices, hot.

END OF BLOCK ONE.
ALL THE SHIT ENDED, and more shit to come next block.
Meisin. oh god.

I am very exhausted. Submission always suck/rock - debrief and end of everything.
Vanessa went to get her hair trimmed today. We met a ship of sailor boys, from german/russia I don't know.
We fought the rain with our wanton noodles and shrimp dumpling soup.  It was great hanging out with Vanessa. I will remember her fav milk-sake, milk-sake, milk-sake. ( milkshake).

Don't know if its the stress and all the late nights, my face has gotten even more.. litte pimples. The whole of 60$$ I spent on Faceshop products is not really working much. And I've been having all this fast-food crave for the past week, especially fries, but Daddy always gets for me potato chips. so much difference between please.
I've been getting even lesser things to write about ever since school started.
Getting back to watching videos on tubeeeeee again.
come back,






Sigh, I'm thinking alot these few days.
so sick of so much things.
1.Just feel like sleeping the whole of this three days, but i don't really want to waste it away. Mondays is the start of another bloody block you see, sad sad sad.
2.This whole block - writing didn't go very, very well for me. I kinda screwed up on alot of the printing for my assignments. A book which I spent 20$$ for. My pocket's a hole. huge one.
3. Really wished I had such paranoid brothers like Tao hua's four brothers.
4. Gain's hair is my next target. 

That's it, I need my bed.

Pimples Alert!

Last assignment before we have a break from all this shit.
Last presentation for creative writing to panic for.
Books, crap.

When was the last time I updated this page? Damn, I am so busy with all this shit in my life I can't even remember what date is it today. Except its a typical friday night.
I finally talked to some other classmates in CDS class. FINALLY PLEASE. I am such a pathetic social nut.

My mom and I went to Haji lane, hoping to find the white blue eyes cutey kitties, but we couldn't find them, sigh.
Priscilla told me her friend wants to go for JYP auditions! Cool stuff. Really.
"Sounds fun, maybe I can try too."  I told my mom.
" what if they ask you get plastic?"
" then do a tummy tuck. woo! "
If only I get to go and see 2PM/SUJU/BIGBANG and blah.
 
jayyyyyy parkkkkkkkk


CHRISTMAS IS COMING BABY!
I GOT MY WHITE CHUNKIES BABY.

is there a way to get bony shoulders?